I’ve been working extremely hard, and that is going to change this year. However, that statement was made to move me to another point. I have been so exhausted these last couple of days although I rested. I rested, for the most part literally, unless I had somewhere to be. So on yesterday, as I usually do every year, I honored myself in keeping the ritual to bring the New Year in with clean clothes and a clean home. What was different this year than all the other years was I started at about 5 pm. The washing of clothes began, a journey to the grocery store, and the cleaning. I was almost done when I realized hmmm I am not going to finish before 12 am. I committed right then and there that I would not go into the New Year in a hurried mindset. No, I knew that was not what I wanted. Although then, I never realized it, but to have done so I would have come into the new year with this attitude of ‘there is not enough’….not enough time, not enough me, not enough. When I made a different choice, immediately the thought came to me that somewhere the New Year has not started, and I thought about Arizona where my children resided. I made the decision that would be my New Year time. I chuckled and continue to do what I was doing.
Prior to this moment, earlier while cleaning, I remembered thinking another year of not being in companionship and no male company to bring the New Year in with. No judgment, no sadness, but a statement to myself that next year this will change. I kept doing what I was doing. Here is where it gets so interesting. Source has jokes. My new year began with two men. A little after 11pm a very dear friend of mine contacted me and we talked to almost 1 am and wished each other a Happy New Year. Then another brother and I talked after he reached out to me. Both have minds that make me think of orgasmic living. I am not in relationship with either, but my perspective and mindset created a new experience for me. Rather than complain about what I did not have, I set an intention. Oh, and I forgot to say one of my beautiful sisters sent a word that she is sending love to me for the New Year. I immediately accepted and told her I knew that it was not just only love from her but the love of a significant other as well. So as I tell my testimony, I see what recently happened to me as Source saying ‘KEEP YOUR MIND RIGHT. I HAVE YOU.’ Perspective is everything.
So whether it is the desire for a relationship, to finish cleaning before the New Year, a business or whatever, perspective is everything. Begin to see all the good that is around you and in every situation. I am so excited about 2019. In 2018, I came out of hiding. In doing so, which sounds like an oxymoron statement, I had to enter back into the darkness of myself with a different intent to see me and connect with myself. This year I step into leadership first becoming a good leader of myself, my life. Then move in the gifts to honor and to be of service to the feminine which serves us all well.